End of the world

Honestly, I gotta put it out there. I'm a Christian and I have faith in Christ, and I have faith that God has a plan for this messed up world. I just don't know what it is.

It's so weird, because last night I had a dream. Well, a nightmare, really. Today is my dad's birthday, and we have had plans to go see The Hobbit in theaters for awhile to celebrate. Last night I had a nightmare that our packed theater was the target of a shooting. I somehow made it out okay, but I lost my family. It was one of the scariest dreams I've ever had. I never would have had a dream like that if it weren't for the Colorado Batman massacre. But as we walked into the theater tonight, my anxiety was up just a little bit.

When I heard about the Connecticut elementary school shooting this afternoon, I was deeply saddened, angered, and disgusted. No matter what psychologists say, no matter how many times they argue "insanity", I don't buy it. Of course, these men (or man, I've heard both) are insane. But there was obvious planning involved. The actual thought of "I'm going to bring a gun into an elementary school and shoot some little kids actually passed through the mind of a person. Someone who had a childhood, who had a chance to have their first school dance, first kiss, first prom, graduate high school. They took those chances, those possibilities away. They played God. Do you know what happens when someone tries to play God? They end up the devil.

I remember in elementary school when we had drills for this kind of thing. But I never in a million years would have dreamed that it could have happened at my school. School is supposed to be safe. Safe for the adults, too. Those adults made a life choice to help, guide, and teach children. They were taken from this Earth trying to protect those children. And now, that safety net is gone. Not only did those evil men take away innocent lives, they took away innocence. I pray to God that the children who were able to make it away from the school will not feel unsafe every day for the rest of their lives. They have had to grow up too quickly. They have seen what our world, our country, has become. Too soon.

I don't understand why this year has been a hot spot for mass shootings. I don't know if people are going off of their rockers because they believe this is the end of the world. But my belief is that we are not supposed to know when that time comes. It happens in a blink of an eye.

But if this is how the world is going to be; maybe it's time for a new one.

I do not know what God's plan is, and why this has happened today. But I do believe that there is good out there in this world. It is time for good to step up, and make itself known again. It is time to bring back faith, hope, love, acceptance, tolerance, and peace back into this world. Especially back into schools, where minds are growing and adapting. It's time that we listen more, and speak less. But when we do speak, we speak up for what is right.

Everything I am saying sounds so cliche. But I can't help it. I can't be clever tonight.

God bless Newtown, Connecticut and those who lost loved ones, and those who have to find ways to move forward. You are not alone.