I Love

I love being put on the back burner.

I love having no control over my life, but instead other people making decisions for me.

I love being the convenient friend that is always around.

Wait.

No I don't.

Suddenly I See

I smell like tanning lotion.

It's been forever and a day since I have written, and I'm not going to try to justify it. I just got lazy. I've been crazy busy with school, work, and this wedding though. But my life since 2011 has started seems quite a bit better. My attitude towards things has changed, which is nice. 

School is going okay so far I suppose. 4 English classes and Astronomy. I don't particularly like Astronomy, I thought I would. I'm doing decently though, I got a 90% on my quiz. English240 is good, I like my professor. He's pretty funny. And I realized that I'm in the right major because sitting in Astronomy is so different for me than sitting in an English class. English I can stay awake and enjoy the conversation, whereas when science or math is put in front of me, I become slightly narcoleptic. All the rest of my classes are okay (English220,213 and 412. 412 is with Dr. Hartman whose classes I always enjoy).

Nothing creative though, which kind of sucks. But Nik and I collaborated on a piece, I'm waiting for him to revise it and put it all together. I'll be excited to see it when he posts it.

I've been having a lot of issues with my stomach again. I go see a doctor next week to hopefully run some tests. I have been getting sick after eating again and pretty bad pain. I'm getting to the point where I just want to swear off food all together. But I can't do that - that's bad.

D.J. got his membership at White River, which is nice. Now he, Barry, Cloe and I can work out together. We did tonight and I'm so sore. Cloe and I also tanned, so hence the "I smell like tanning lotion remark". And we ate. It was nice, I love spending time with them. D.J. and I have a bet going, I need to lose 20 pounds and he needs to lose...some amount I can't remember. Whoever loses their whole amount wins, and the loser has to do something embarrassing at the wedding. 

I wish I had better self-confidence.

And I wish these stupid braces would come off. I had a dream last night they just fell off and my teeth were still crooked. It was pretty strange.

Hey Amy....I miss you