New Year's Eve

Hubby and I went on a date tonight. It consisted of getting ticked off because Applebee's, Chili's and everywhere else on God's green McGalliard road was overflowing with people wanting to eat my food. Instead we went to Rally's and he tried (he was so persistent) to get me to do the McDonald's rap. But I'm a failure and can never remember what comes after we be up in this drive-thru, order for two. And then there's something about Dr. Pepper. Then after Rally's (it was my first time. It wasn't bad, but now my stomach is all "Y U PUT STUFF DOWN IN ME THAT IS PAINFUL? I MAKE YOU HURT NOW"), we went and sat in the movie theater parking lot until it was time to go in. We went and saw "New Years Eve" and of course I loved it. Seeing that many stars in one production, (not counting Valentines Day because it was basically the same thing, different holiday), was delightful for me. I am the type of person who just knows about stars and can remember stuff about them. Hubby got Hilary Swank and Sarah Jessica Parker mixed up, and he didn't know who Matthew Broderick is (I gasped and looked at him with extreme shock. Everyone knows Ferris). 


But this movie gave me this instant dose of optimism. That's what good movies do. They make you feel something. And that's hard for me, I'm a stone hearted bitca. (Anyone? Xander? Anyone? I'm trying hard not to swear as much). I just realized that I am in control over my choices. While I may not be in complete control over what happens to me, I can control how I react to things. I am choosing this year to be optimistic. Lots of big changes are coming my way this year. Graduation. Moving out. Finding a job. (TERRIFIED. OH MY GOD HOW DO YOU BECOME AN ADULT? Does anyone truly become an "adult"? Do you wake up one morning with a mortgage and a baby and you're like, holy craapppp, I'm an adult! I don't think I'll ever be an actual adult. I don't know how to do ANYTHING adult like. And to quote Doctor Who, "“There’s no point being grown-up if you can’t be childish sometimes.”) But no, seriously. I have been thinking for the past few weeks about life, and what to do with it, and how short it is, and all those wonderful, deep thoughts. It's exciting to not know where your life is heading. The stuff everyone talks about, it's still in the future, waiting to happen. That's pretty cool.


I would love to write for a television show, or write a script for a movie, or something like that, and give people the feeling that I get when I watch good television. It's unlike anything else, besides a book. I'll do some of that too.  (Why is this double spaced all of a sudden? Copy and pasting, that's what kills the formatting.)


I'm going to go and do something optimistic now. Like save a kitten from a tree. Every kitten needs to be saved.